I'm not choosing a private school over a state school (I would love her to go to our local schools), I'm choosing what's easiest for us as a family hopefully without jeapordising daughter's education.
I'm worrying that I'm taking her away from the friends she has already made at nursery who will be continuing in the local school. (Also, if I change my mind later I won't be able to get her back in local school as it is oversubscribed, so it's now or never.)
I'm also signing myself up to staying in the same job for the next 14 years to keep her at my school.
I'm signing myself up to weekends spent driving for hours to Portia's converted farmhouse or Amelia's mansion and spending afternoons sitting in Sainsbury's car park waiting for her playdate to end (yes, my colleagues have done this).
I'll have to answer the 'why can't I have a pony?' or 'why don't we go skiing?' -type questions.
I'm lying awake at night wondering if she'll be bullied for having her mum teaching at her school (not that any member of staff has said this has happened to their children, but as a mum you worry about everything)
I'm wondering how to buy her £200 ($400) uniform before she starts in September. Why do private schools not allow you to buy Tesco uniform?
I'm worrying if she'll fit in, or am I worrying if I'll fit in?
Will she be happy, will I be happy?